I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

I'm back in Sydney. School starts tmr Have a lecture at 1pm Thank God there's no 9am tutorial.




I am settling in just fine. The holidays have been amazing but I realise there's nothing much to be gained from sitting around wishing uni doesn't start. The weather's been damp and gloomy and really cold but thank God for friends.


I'll hit the sheets asap i'm too tired, hopefully have something interesting soon-ish :)



And yes, despite my reluctance, and diving into the deep end of the pool without knowing my limits or how close the floor is to the surface,


I am Happy, thanks to You (:

God bless x

Do you remember your password? Do you remember Anything at all?

So much has happened over the last week. My absence from this blog due to the fact that i am busy observing....not.



So, there was the bombings, my two day rendezvous to Malacca with the family and friends, falling sick, the fact that Manutd beat the malaysian local team ONLY 2-0, swine flu/H1N1, a few passing ons, Sims3, and then some...Oh and I guess I could heap "Harry Potter and the half-blood prince" in the same category lol ?



Shame about the Jakarta bombing. Had a friend who flew there in hopes of watching Manchester United play, but the team didn't show up. But that's not the point. The point is nowhere's safe anymore, is it? And Singapore - well, all it takes is just a small one to go off on the expressway at 8 in the AM, or at Dhoby Ghaut MRT, and the casualty rate would've shot through the roof in a matter of minutes. It is scary, but it is true.

Malacca on the other hand was heaps fun. So the family drove in with dad's two other colleague's and one of his colleague's wife. It was a really good trip - we ate a tad too much I reckon, but enjoyed the sun nonetheless. Did a fair bit of shopping even.


Anyway, two more days left, I wonder if it was always this hard to leave? I always seem to enjoy Sydney anyway(: But yeah albeit being too relunctant, I guess I'm prepared. I have to be. This is what I paid for - no pun and not literally.

Good day awesome people. You are greatly missed x

Don't you die a little bit on the inside

Rachel Weisz's coat! And shoes!


Yahhh funkaye to a whole notha level me friend

She pulls of The tie!

C-O-A-T

The hats! The coats! Everything!


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Who's this ? ;)


And then there's the new Harry Potter movie coming up. I adore Hermoine Granger, I do. And I'm so happy Emma Watson is returning to play the bushy haired apparently bland-looking bossy Granger. She plays her so well. Even if she's too pretty.

Sidenote: JKR chose the name Hermione from a character in Shakespeare's play "A Winter's Tale;" although she says that the characters are not at all similar. She thought it made sense for a couple of professional dentists to name their only daughter something like that to show how clever they were.


Emma Watson's so chic too. I follow her on gofugyourself.com (:


!!!!!




Now let me sleep to dreammmmm (:

Saw your face on the corner of my mind

x

The Brothers Bloom

It's been awhile since I chanced upon a movie that blew me away. But this:





like, hello? It's soooooo goooodddddd!!


Adrien Brody is the new McDreamy, or maybe the original one.




Yes, yes, he is the lead actor in The Pianist, for which he won an Academy Award for best actor, and got nominated for a whole bunch of others, including the Golden Globes. Other 'famous' (to me) appearances include King Kong and The Darjeeling Limited.


But yeah, the movie was so refreshing. Potentially confusing (what was that about the Diamond Dog?), but indeed very raw and a breather from the rest of the new releases out there. Not what I expected. The cinematography was particularly fascinating for me, especially how the scenes were shot and the angles were used. The music, despite not to my liking, was better than half of the movies that I've watched.


But apart from the comedy - it made me laugh so hard, Rachel weisz you are most hilarious, the outfits were to die for. Honestly, all that they were wearing.... only a dream come true. The cutest coats and the funkiest shoes!! I WANNNNTTTTTTT


I reckon it was a stellar cast, with Rinko Kikuchi who played a mute Bang Bang (like she played a mute role in Babel too) as the quirky sidekick for Stephen (Ruffalo) who eased charm and who longs to create the perfect con, "to tell a story so well it becomes real."


So artsy fartsy. A tad overdone maybe, but just the way I like it. And I might even go so far to say that it lacked in logic. Definitely not the smartest movie, with overkills in the wit section, but I still say Superb, and very delightful.

So two words: Random, and Snowflakey. Not too sure about the 2nd. Goodnight x

we are tangled, but still inseparable

pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

Sometimes, something appears out of nowhere, and slaps me in the face the only way Inspiration with a capital I does.


And then I realised, I've been blogging. I haven't been writing. I haven't been listening. I haven't been capturing. I've been blogging. I've been hearing. I've been taking pictures.



I wonder what happened along the way. Don't we all?

Greater things have yet to come

Hillsong Conference 2009! WOOHOOO


I'm so pumped up for it even though i'm maybe 6000km away from Sydney! :D

Casey and I were just talking about it last night, along with the new album that's coming up :)




"For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. For God, who said 'Let light shine out of darkness,' made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ"

2 Corinthians 4:5-6



Not about us. About Him

Praying for Conference - it is not JUST another conference, for Sydney, and for PEOPLE. sooooo gooooodddd! xx

Aeroplanes, I like Aeroplanes

I think I'm going to be lazy and go back to sleep. I did ten laps in the pool, had chicken rice for lunch, and (finally) started on a new book.

The holidays just starting I am going to love the next 3 weeks and dread going back to Sydney, Yowwwzaaaaa nothing like hiding under the duvet with the air con turned on and rain pattering on your window

And you know what? If you think sleeping is an immense waste of time, especially at 2.30 in the PM, you can always rock it out (:


Cos see, God made us as rockstars, and we need to understand that.

We R rawkstarz. We have a stage and we need to rise to the occasion. We need to sing our lungs out and smash them guitars, perform our solos doubly fantastic.

And when people see you perform, they'd buy tickets to see your show, and you'll end it leaving them clamouring for more. Did someone say, triple platinum CDs?

U R rockstarz. So blessed by God who chose to sign you on. He believed in you when you were starting out as a measly solo act in high school, or college, or performing in rundown pubs and practicing in garages.

He blessed you and bam wham pow, new life!



Am out x

Like yesterday is gone:

So today was probably the most eventful day ever since I came back.


1) I woke up at around 1030am and found myself glued to the bed until 2

2) Had lousy chicken rice (without chilli too!!!) but still Thanked God for whoever started chicken rice

3) Caught a bus down to TM

4) Caught a train to Bugis

5) Walked to the fountain just outside starbucks to look for Phaedra and Kevin but was stopped by two women

6) Had that two women ask if I was Japanese

7) Looked at two women strange and tried to be nice by keeping a conversation going

8) Had to be a smart alex and agree to do a supposedly short ten minutes survey

9) Yet to meet Phae and Kevin, but realised that for some reason my legs was on automode and following the two women away from Starbucks

10) Continued being nice and kept up with the conversation, ended up across the road in an office building

11) Took the lift up and walked into a room filled with unknowing citizens like me and dodgy salespeople

12) Listened patiently through all that talk she gave - she was actually pretty nice

13) Got told I'm fat (indirectly). Like, SERIOUSLY.

14) Did not get annoyed - I agreed with her.

15) She tried to sell me some protein breakfast shakes or whatever nonsense, kept asking for my food budget

16) Had Phae call me, asking me To Get The Hell Out Of The Place

17) Got out successfully without surrending a single cent (unless you count time as money)

18) Met Phae and Kevin at Bugis Street, which was typically crowded and unusually happening (the juice stall)

19) Walked two rounds around some random store at Bugis Street, making a fuss over the wide variety of sweets. Found out Kevin is a very good sweet hunter.

20) Realised it was 5pm and walked back to Bugis to catch our movie, Ice Age 3

21) Bought small popcorn - 2/3rd salty, 2/3rd sweet, of which Phae HAD TO put butter, reminding me of 'FAT' remark

22) Walked into dodgy theatre at Bugis - the floors weren't carpeted, you had to flip the seats down, the seats were extremely low, drink holder was broken - yes you get the gist. I'd rather go to Shaw Towers at Beach Road!

23) Watched Ice Age 3. Funny in a not-so-funny way

24) Decided to catch a train to Clarke Quay, so walked down to the basement

25) De-toured to some random stall, where Kevin decided to buy some Kaya pastry

26) Kevin asked what Kaya was, Phae couldn't explain, I said 'Pandan?'. - The lady in front of us chipped in "eggs and sugar and coconut!"

27) Felt very embarrassed to be called a Singaporean.

28) Kevin said that Kaya tasted like Crocodile meat (?!!?!), took the train to Clarke Quay.

29) Walked around Clarke Quay trying to figure what to do next

30) Had some Indian man in a turban ask if I wanted to take a picture with him (?!?!)

31) Walked around somemore

32) Decided to eat, so we cabbed to Lau Pa Sat

33) Ordered: Stingray, Kangkong, Or lua, BBQ Chicken Wings, Sugarcane :D

32) Phae suggested going to this very fantastic dessert place near Bugis

33) Cabbed BACK to Bugis - we really need a car

34) Realised Phae didn't know the exact street name for the dessert place, tried calling Alan, he did not pick up

35) Asked the Cab Driver/Uncle to name a few places to try and refresh Phae's memory

36) Epic fail. But the Uncle was crazily nice.

37) Had Kevin tell us that it felt like we three were tourists - we really need a person who knows his/her way around

38) Felt VERY embarrassed to be called a Singaporean

39) Found out where Pervis street is

40) Found out that P street is next to Liang Seah street which Phae actually recognised

41) Thanked the cab driver profusely. Have decided that he is the best cab driver IN THE WORLD.

42) Had Mango Sago + Pomelo + mango ice cream at Ah Chew Dessert Place - I know, how innovative?

43) Finished the dessert but felt so obese and full after I felt like puking. Once again got reminded of 'Fat' comment.

44) Walked back to Bugis Junction

45) Went to the arcade at the basement and wondered why Singaporean teens like to hang there
46) Took the train to Bedok MRT

47) Took the bus back home

48) Washed up, then told my mum about today

49) Had her 'scold' me for following two strangers

50) I am blogging about my day.




But, so what? Because 'today' has already become 'yesterday'.


Yesterday IS gone.



Every day we borrow

Brings us one step closer to the edge (infinity)

Where's your treasure, where's your hope

If you get the world and lose your soul ?

We are not infinite We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate

We're so confident In our accomplishments Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank Sinatra

Like Elvis and his mom

Like Al Pacino's cash, nothing lasts in this life

My highschool dreams are gone

My childhood sweets are gone

Life is a day that doesn't last for long

Life is more than money

Time was never money

Time was never cash,

Life is still more than girls

Life is more than hundred dollar bills

And roto-tom fills

Life's more than fame and rock and roll and thrills

All the riches of the kings End up in wills

we got information in the information age

But do we know what life is Outside of our convenient Lexus cages

She said he said live like no tomorrow

Every moment that we borrow

Brings us closer to the God who's not short of cash


Hey Bono i'm glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is still worth living


Place hope and faith on the Unshakeable, not the shakeable.
Spend your days for The One worth living for, for His Glory, for yesterday is gone, and today will soon be gone, and then there will be eternity.

xx

Choose wisely:

So, I haven't been on ticketek.com.au for way too long.



The Script
Sat 26 Sept 2009
Enmore Theatre, NSW
$62


The All American Rejects
Fri 21 Aug 2009
Enmore Theatre, NSW
$65
Special Guests: Hoobastank & The Sundance Kids



Decoder Ring
Fri 26 Aug 2009
Metro Theatre, NSW
$30



How to chooosseeeee? x

I need your grace, to remind me, to find my own

Grace

We lack in possibly one of the most precious elements, portrayed through our liability to throw aside Patience and cast aside Love, all of which are interlinked supernaturally.


I literally just woke up and amongst all that today seemed to bring, the laughter and joy I expected, I ended up in tears.

What an incredibly overwhelming feeling. One only brought by Someone who is far greater and all-powerful - a God moment and I wasn't even prepared for it.

And then I realised, what a perfect moment to encounter God. Half awake and ignorant to my surroundings, except maybe all things nice on my bed, I am in one of my most vulnerable moments.


And that's why I am inevitably That Much Closer to God.


Okay, I'm sitting here and all these - everything's just running haywire so I need to backtrack - back to the start, literally.


Grace.

It is favour. It is favour that is unmerited. It is love. It is a gift. And the thing is, we do not deserve it. And it is that simple.

The extent of His grace is enough to blow us all away - that we all know, and also, that's why we don't know. We really cannot begin to fanthom how powerful Grace is.

Grace is God blessing us with things that we completely do not deserve - which again, must be distinguished from Mercy, which is God witholding judgement that we Do deserve.

Both are absolutely sensational.

"I need your grace, to remind me, to find my own"

Simply because we fall short, especially in that area.

"But he said to me, (God to Paul) 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.'

2 Corinthians 12:9

And that brings us back to vulnerability. Weakness.

We are weak. God is strong. Yes, yes, we knew that already. But what exactly are we doing about it?

In fact, so often, don't we all try hard NOT to be weak?

We strive for perfection, for greatness, we try to be stronger than others.

"Survival of the fittest" "Outlast" "The Biggest Loser", Heck, "Master Chef" - all (reality TV) examples of human beings trying hard NOT to be weak.

But see, Grace is enough. Because God doesn't just love us. God doesn't just love us well. God doesn't just love us fully.

He loves us in ABUNDANCE. That's yes - overspilling, too much for us to contain.

And if we are in Christ, then there is no need to try and be stronger, better. In fact, we should be completely vulnerable instead.

"There I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

2 Corinthians 12:9

Don't boast about your strength. It means nothing. Your weakness is Everything. For it is only when we make ourselves weak, smaller than God, insignificant like we really are, that we will bring ourselves to completely Depend on God.

And complete dependence will manifest God's power in your life.

We fear being vulnerable. We fear being embarrassed. We fear giving away our secrets. We fear sharing. We fear being read like an open book. We fear being boring. We fear being predictable. We fear being too open. We want mystery. We want people to 'figure us out'. But when we try to do that, we try to have the upper hand - and that, at least for me, gets in the way of being completely vulnerable to God.

Isaiah 66: 2

"This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word"

Contrite = feeling a sense of guilt and a desire for atonement; penitent

Only possible when we allow ourselves to be completely vulnerable. And when we are completely vulnerable we are strong - we are esteemed, through Grace.

Give it all really means Give it ALL. There's no way to be a good politician and beat around the bush. He saved our lives, why should we fear?

When we are open, weak, to God - His power is able to flow into us, and we will then be made strong.

Because His strength > our strength times infinity.

It's not as easy as willing it all to be right
Gotta be more than hoping it's right
I wanna hear you laugh like you really mean it
Collapse into me, tired with joy

With my hands open and my eyes open I just keep hoping That your heart opens.

Open your heart God Bless x

I could never fall in love again

Keep a watch on this space, (hopefully) something amazing this way comes.





Thank God for friends. Cheryl, jmo & varian in particular who are buying chicken rice back :D

Have an awesome day x



*/EDIT

THEY DIDNT BUY CHICKEN RICE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!! D:

What kinda friends do I have. Walao.