I dig my toes into the sand

Who knew that sitting in front of the computer the whole day can be so tiring?
Well, that's what i did today and its POSITIVELY EXHAUSTING i tell you!

Just admin stuff - data entry, cleaning up the system all.
Working is just so addictive i didn't get up to pee and went for late lunch HAHA Oh and i almost missed the bus!

Yea well i realised that i have to travel to woodlands like, frm next week onwards (i think) because UPS is having some promotion thingamajic at the american school or some sort.
Looking forward to working there and meeting new new people!
NOT looking forward to the early hours and all (must be there at 8.30am! I LIVE IN BEDOK BTW!)

Haven't made much friends yet because i'm very caught of with working (i told youuuuu)
Working can also lead to gastrics and headache which is what i'm feeling now.

But the staff there are bagus! Haha very funny people. Though i didn't interact with most of them, i still have ears (it's not called eavesdropping okayyyy)

Okay enough of the whole computer thing.
Too tired already!

see you all soonnn :D

Breaking these grey walls of silence

I never knew how hard it was to shop for working clothes!
Anyway i never got any in the end la.

Had sakae sushi with my parents at TM.
Saw hamsome tan with his girlfriend haha
And i also saw julie working at erm isetan! She tried to coax me into buying some necklace thingum but sorry not this time!

Now i'm home. Somehow, it feels like a school night again!
Only i don't have to bring anything. No books or papers or even stationery.
I just have to wake up on time tmr morning.
And THAT, by itself, is a gigantic problem.

Oh and because i happened to lose many songs (who knows why!)
i'm trying to find these songs at the moment(nope not in order)(i'm over downloading stuff you see)

1. No it isn't - Plus44
2. First date, girl at the rock show, all the small things - Blink182
3. In too deep - sum41 (LOL)
4. The great escape (acoustic only!), me, you my medication, heels over head, holiday, 5 minutes to midnight - Boys Like Girls
5. It means nothing - Stereophonics
6. Clarity, Paper, I'm Sorry - Daphne Khoo
7. The Kill(acoustic) - 30 Seconds To Mars
8. Hands Down (acoustic only!) - RJA
9. so long, so long, the best deception, so long sweet summer, stolen ETC ETC ETC - DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL
10. Broken, Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
11. Rockstar, Photographs, Savin' Me ETC - Nickelback.


I know i know, all my favourite songs too! I'm currently stuck with a whole bunch of incubus lah.
Okay that's it for now. Have no idea where the other ipod went. When i find it i'll be able to transfer the songs! Then, hello leanne rimes! (:

Cheers!

Shadow of the day

Been at home the whole day, all alone. "Being alone does not equate to being lonely" - Bear that in mind.
How can you be right? Someone invented TV, hello!

Starting work tmr. Don't know what to expect.
Am hoping that the people are nice and that they won't just chuck stuff at me and expect me to finish everything in 5 seconds.
I may be good but i'm not superman(:

Realised that the dings are coming over to stay this friday! :D
However i can only meet them at night because i end work at 6.

Okayyyyy lemme go dwell in the silence of my humble abode.

see you later alligators.

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Hyped about leaving all of a sudden! The worst possible way to want to leave. Practically perverse i know (HAHA) but yea i can't wait to say goodbye to this tiny little island.
Feeling extremely claustrophobic now. I think i have some issues.



Because this world is stained with imperfections
And words always seem to make things better
Fairytales take us to another world, another place



and then you see. Words never fail.
Until now. Dammit.
But who's counting now, tell me who?

How about Enough

I'm falling asleep soon. Can barely keep my eyes open
ta.

So where do we go?(:

why'd you have to be so damn clever?

You know those days when shit happens and your body is on auto-mode but your brain's whirring at the speed of light?

Today is one of those days.

I'm trying very hard to keep my feelings in place and not let my emotions rule my head. It's been tough so far.

Well, the day's ending and i'm at home, alone. Yet again.
I'm trying not to sound bitter and i'm really Not bitter. Believe me.
Brother's in army (haha botak chua - as what my younger cousins call him), dad &mum's gna send grandma to hospital.

So well, not much happened the past few days.
Went for midnight movie with jiang, varian, brother &michelle. Caught Enchanted and surprisingly, it was pretty good! Funny (i <3 chipmunks! Save them, save the earth HHAHA) and very fairytale-like with happy endings and stuff.
Very creative though.

Today i almost didn't make it for church because by the time i slept last night it was around 3? I've been sleeping at past midnight for the past few days but that's gna change because i'm starting work on tuesday and like school, it's not as if they'd give me a medal for being late lah.

Church was good. Message was good. Lunch was okay.
After sending dom to white sands we went to gwyneth's 1 year old birthday party.
MY GOODNESS.
I like children. Sure, little kids with cute faces and funny actions. Very appealing.
But shove a room full of screaming toddlers aged 3-6 and i tell you, i'd rather eat live snakes, swim across the pacific and fight lions than stay in that room forever! Sheesh! The noise level there can easily beat any pub/bar/club in singapore. Haha i went crazy after five minutes and hurried to the apartment after they cut cake.

And then we all went to my grandmum's place because she's complaining about excruciating pain in the abdomen or smethg. Okay not to the point of 'excruciating pain' i guess, but pain enough.

And that's when my parents sent me home to 'try and sleep early'(Try).

Life isn't fair. Yeah that's what almost everyone says.
But i was just thinking about it and I mean, who are we to say that life is fair, or not?
It's not as if we're judges with a lean mean rulebook in our hand. It's not as if we have the RIGHT to say if life is fair or not.
What i'm trying to say is that Life is complicated. Trying to figure it all out will probably make you retarded - If the brain gets any smaller or simpler, we still wouldn't be able to comprehend it all.
What is life? Making good money? Achieving good results? Getting a rich and beautiful wife or a successful, gorgeous husband?
I tell you, or rather The Higher Up tells us that
Life =
1. Having a relationship with Him
2. Growing towards him
3. Doing what He called us to do.

Simple in theory, difficult in the practical area.
But today's message struck me.

We cannot give what we do not have.
But we can give what we Do have.
It may sound nonsensical and totally obvious at first (I hear some people going Duh! In your face man) but think about it. Really think about it (ahhh... lit kids)

Whatever we have isn't insufficient. No, not in God's eyes it isn't.
And if we give what we Do have, we won't return empty handed.
God won't go - Hey human! Give me everything you've got, drop dead and die. See you in your next life yo!
We will be blessed. That, i'm extremely sure of.

Christianity isn't a religion. It's a relationship.
It's a relationship that you cannot comprehend. It's a connection that's as real as oxygen and wind.
People always want proof. Always.
But we're too small, too insignificant to see the bigger picture. We were not created to figure out why.


And i know i sound super boring.
I told you my body's in auto-mode and my brain's whirring at the speed of light.

XOXO

This love has taken its toll on me

I just finished watching survivor and for the first time, i feel so damn bloody cheated.
Waited all week to watch survivor(ghost whisperer ended you see) and then the producers had the bloody cheek to screen hot stuff from the past few episodes.
Sure, they even added some behind the scene stuff, but it wasn't dirty enough to make me happy. By dirty, i mean swapping spit and all. Nope, all it did was just to show us how pissed all of them can get drinking cheena wine.

Okay i know i sound bitter but.
Haha okay la really no reason but i'm looking forward to next week's episode!

So i went for medical check up today. X-ray was pretty quick &considering the fact that it's my second time doing it, i have to compare services. It's a human instinct so don't blame me.
And then i went to paragon for medical check up number 2. And then they asked me to pee into a cup.

I mean, yea urine test common right. But i've never done it before HAHA the 'experience' blew my mind. What grossed me out was the the cup they gave me was the same kinda cups they used for drinking water. It was out of the world man.

So i ended my check up early. Apparently i still weigh average so no need to worry about getting fat. YET. haha

Met up with cheryl &ber at cine. Shopped for a lil while and then went to taka's macs to eat. I love spending time with those 2 people! Never fail to make my day, really (:

Well, we shopped around wisma too. Saw nice tops &dresses but either no size, or too ex.
Anyway i got my long jacket thingum frm Esprit, 70$. It was on sale and the original price was i think 129$? Or more? Haha i'm still gna get a nice hoodie though, for plane rides and stuff.
Also got shorts frm this cotton place at Ps - 30$for 2, so i got one and pts got one.
Cheryl got a dress frm forever21. The price was prettaye high but it was unique &it looked great on her
Bernice got a purse from Esprit too &the two of them got cheap earrings at chinatown!

Haha so all in all, very fruitful day. Extremely productive. None of the walking around looking for clothes but not getting any shit. Sweet.
Except for the fact that i spent a bomb. Hahaha

Well now first prority is bag and proper working clothes because i'm all jeans and tshirts and slippers! Gorgeous heels are definitely not fit for work too, no matter how gorgeous they are(:

So yeah i'll probably get the essentials tmr.
OH AND MY WATCH FRM ALDO! :D

Lemme change topics for awhile. I was just snooping through my mum's wardrobe the other day and my goodness. You want vintage? Take a look at my mum's stuff. She has this 'borneo' (HAHA U2!) purse thing that's absolutely gorgeous and today she threw me two dresses (that she can't fit into anymore) - velvety short dress thing and this dark blue dress, very plain but pair it with pumps, funky belt and a nice cardigan, you'll feel like you so belong in singapore! I'm like, wow not bad hahaha
So yea. Forget the 'vintage' stuff they sell you outside - all those dresses and polka dotted ancient stuff. Those stuff may Look vintage but go look in your grandma's closet, do sme amendments and hey! You've got a true blue vintage dress/bag/purse and whatever lah.

Total madness (SAL)

Okay see you people soooonnn.

1.28, 1.26

Almost 12 and i'm stuck here at home.
Was supposed to go out with cheryl &pts but i've got medical check up at 3 - around 5.
Let's hope that it ends early or smethg then i can go meet them(:

The rate's dropping &that's a good sign i guess.
I realised i haven't been - I don't know the word for it Haha but yea I haven't been doing much
I'm not even earning money
I'm just slacking at home all day wasting money.
It's really quite sad isn't it.

So i got up today and decided to look for more info, like weather conditions &all. It's around 8-16 degrees in winter & their slangs!

One example - "Ankle Biter" means Small child.
HAHA like can you ever imagine singaporean mums dragging their tods to the market and screaming bloody murder at their 'ankle biters'?

I don't know if they really use it all but hey nat's back i can ask her(:
Germs will be back soon too! Another 20 days or so.

Okay i'm off. Just finished another tony parson's book &i'm currently starting on Honeymoon by James patterson.
I know i know! What am i doing reading at home right?

Ha. Good question. I ask myself that all the time too :D

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I realised that ever since this job-hunting thingum, i've been so caught up with finding jobs, getting replacements, msging people, recieving calls and calling people.
It's like i'm so busy suddenly. People are perculiar creatures who can't seem to make up their minds. Bosses and companies all. But i have to accept it. We all have to accept the sad way the world functions. Nevermind that functioning is a wrong word because things are often dysfunctional. Okay now i'm talking nonsense and making no sense.

But why do you care anyway?

My parents are just as busy. No wonder people look forward to getting off work and just sitting down for a breather. Singapore is way too fast-paced. Ever walked along orchard road or the CBD? Everyone's rushing off like some mad train. Everyone look like they've got an appointment they can't be late for. Singapore - Small but efficient no doubt. Very very busy.

Anyway, i understand that my parents are effing stressed up and i'm not.
Reminder : Be independent, geraldine. Over there you gta learn to live by yourself. There'll be no such thing as sitting at home waiting for dinner to fly to you with your dad as the temporary delivery boy.
I know i sound spoilt but honestly. How many of you cook your own meals? Oh and instant/maggie noodles do not count as a proper meal. Haha by meals i mean rice and veg and all. How many of us have maids and mums who do the housework all. You see, i AM spoilt. Spoilt by all this development and high standards of living. Spoilt by the pampering of our parents who went through life differently and want things to be good and smooth for their own children.

Now look at me rattling on like some freight train. Hell, i could write a book about all this shit and maybe even become famous HAHA

Fate fell short this time.

Remember how i used to whine about not having a job all?

Well, my aunt's company decide that - why not hire two O'lvl students with no proper cert yet?
HAHA so yea, i got the job &i'm confirm going for it. After all, the pay's good and the experience will definitely come in handy - UPS okay don't play play.

I really hope best friend can come and join me though! Changi is such an ulu place (Even for me haha) but i hope hope hope that she can work with me! Goodness i miss her so so much.
HAHA sounds so lesbiany but hey whatever people.

So yea, Thank God because the wait was worth it, i think.

Well i'm getting sick again and it sucks. Not nice to fall ill.
And i think i feel more seperated from the world now then when i was studying my butt off.
The irony.

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Okay we're both getting the job! Thank God. SORRY AUDREY now i feel so guilty =/

Sudden turn of events! =( bestfriend may/may not be working!
SO. If she isn't working, i'll need replacements!

Company - UPS
Pay - 7.50 per hour
Working Hours - Mon - Fri, 8.30am - 6pm
Venue - Ulu place in Changi, cargo centre place thingamajic. However, we may move around when they have promotions(town etc)
Job Scope - Under the marketing department. Admin stuff probably?
Shuttle service to and fro, before &after work - Tampines Mrt, Sengkang Mrt, AMK Mrt.

If you're the kind that can travel freely and are interested, please contact me! PRIORITY STILL GIVEN TO CHERYL! :D First come first serve basis. Only room for ONE MORE PERSON.
Oh and Office wear is a must! No open-toe shoes, no mini skirts, tank tops, slippers, jeans even! Work until the end of december.
MUST MUST MUST commit to job! No quitting suddenly. NO HOLIDAYS.

So, if you're interested, please contact me asap. JOB STARTS ON MONDAY!

Sheesh. I feel so desperate.

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Okay this is like probably the 953218510542nd time i'm editing this post!
Well, the job is taken like, in the snap of my fingers! Man, jobs are hard to find but once you find them, whoosh! They fly out the window.

So Grace got the job! HAHA people that woman has been with me since what, primary 1. hahaha
Okay la now i need to worry about what to wear for work!
XOXO

No money = No talk

I'm back it's almost 9. Both feet NK already sal.

HAHA okay enough with the ding language.
Went out with them funny people today! Bus-ed to kovan where i met ding, returned the dvds &walked to pts' house. she did our nails after watching her surgeon show(TOTAL)
It was like old times! Eating and laughing and talking nonsense :D

So we trained down to PS Just for pasta mania! Just had this crazy craving for it - Thanks to bernicepehsweeyee the fat one. Oh &i saw kelvin frm NC'06 working at pasta.
Then we trained dwn to bugis because ding wanted to buy her black skinny jeannnsssss. She finally bought it after trying the jeans frm 3 different shops! Haha funny la she. She also bought a purse thingum frm billabong.
Oh and we felt so so so sorry for ourselves we tried prom dresses. Yeah entirely to make up for the fact that we don't have prom night. Sad right! And we saw wanzi working at bugis village &esther working at bugis
We were all like, Why are we doing this shopping thing? Why are we slacking our butts off while people work non-stop!
Hahaaha but yea we walked around some more with feet that hurt like hell. We were practically zombies.

And then for old times sake, we took neos.
The first one was pretty much screwed but it got like, laughs out of all of us. The 2nd time was much better though.
Oh man i miss those days where we would get high in the neoprint machine and just sit there and chitchat and scream and all. It's sad though. Because we aren't sec2s anymore - not 14 year olds anymore.

Well i saw this gorgeous purple heels. It has this oommpphhh about it haha the dings will know what i mean. 30 bucks and im planning to get it i guess?

Short of money! Like, REALLY REALLY short of it.
Made visa today and $#(@!%)!@%$@ its freakin expensive. Like, about 500$ ++ ?
Let's hope that my cousin can get me a good temp. job at her office with good pay.
Oh, and you're supposed to lend me the greys anatomy dvds too audrey! (:

ANYWAY i'm very into this song nowadays. Go plain white Ts! Forget hey there delilah hahaha this song's so extremely addictive, esp the Love, love, love, love, love, love part haha!

Love, love, love, love, love, love.

You were everything I wanted
You were everything a girl could be
Then you left me broken-hearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me

All I wanted was your
Love, love, love, love, love, love.
Hate is a strong word
but i really, really, really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you
I really don't like you
Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All i wanted was your
Love, love, love, love, love, love.
Hate is a strong word
But i really, really, really don't like you (I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you (liked about you)
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really dont like you
Now that it's over
you can't hurt me
Now that it's over
you can't bring me down
(Ooh, ooh, ooh, oh, oh, oh...)[x2]
All i wanted was your
Love, love, love, love, love, love.
Hate is a strong word
but i really, really, really don't like you (I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you (Liked about you)
Brought you around
and you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really dont like you
(Ooh, ooh, ooh, oh, oh, oh...)[x4]
I really don't like you
I really don't like you
I really don't like you

XOXOXO i really really really don't like you(:

Got my heart on lock down.

I miss bestfriend. She called me just now &i miss her funny actions and the way she exaggerates stuff. Very cute(: Let's find a job tgt! ILU <3

I miss the dings! We REALLY should catch up and sleepover some day! We keep saying it but we never do it. How hard can it get right? HAHA type sal!

I miss GB - the drills and the kuku moments (:

I miss school. Staying at home all day = no sense of purpose. I walk by the pile of TYS each time and resist this urge to take them out and do them. Mixed feelings on that though.

And i wna meet the skate guy from this video. I think i've loved him since forever, whatever his name is(: How can you not right! The sad thing is that his face is shown for what, 2 seconds? 3? HAHA but then during 'making the video' (oh man ten years ago!) you'd see him for eternity. &eternity wasn't enough. I know i sound psycho. like, REALLY psycho LOL
P.S: This was the avril lavigne i USED to like in primary school(!!!!!!!)




Goodbye. I feel a weakness coming on, never felt so good to be so wrong

Time has taken a hold of you &me

Things to be done today:

1. Get out of bed

2. Survive

3. Get back into bed

Losing our souls in this material world

(10 things) I WANT...

1. Someone who will write a song for me because they love me
2. Someone who will cook me a meal because they like me
3. Someone who will write me a long long long long letter because they don't want to hide things from me
4. Someone who will make me laugh anytime because they hate seeing me sad
5. Someone who will let me listen to their mp3 and play me nice songs because they want to make me happy
6. Someone who will smile at me because that's a nice thing to do haha
7. Someone who will call me first thing and say i miss you because they miss me
8. Someone who will dedicate a song for me on the radio because they know i'll be tuning in
9. Someone who will talk to me about anything and everything because there's never enough
10. Someone who will grow with me towards Christ because God is our first Love(:

If you possess all these qualities, we can get married tmr HAHA

But the gift of God is eternal life[:

I AM SO BOREDDDDDDDDDD
Plus, it's gna rain soon so there goes my tanning plans.

My cousins are away (TAIWAN) &pts is going out with her own cousins.

):

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I just realised that half of November's already passed. It's the 19th btw and it feels like eternity since the start of the year!

2007 has definitely been memorable but no, i'm not gna start on some long-winded sentimental post. No, not today. I'll save it for new year(:

But seriously, it just passed so quickly. Like, where did all the days go to man? The weeks, and months?

Not too long ago i was still heading the board and mugging like mad and being obsessed with GB. And now? I'm a hell of a slacker who sits at home all day and do nothing.
*Nothing = watching the whole LOTR trilogy consecutively( Really, i just did it. 12 hours++ in front of the tv. Sheesh.)

Six years in primary school, four in sec.
I look at myself and go, 'you're sixteen. SIXTEEN. why don't you FEEL sixteen-ish?'
I think all of us have/are still feeling or felt this way before. Like, when we were primary school kiddos we'd all look up at the sec 4s and think that they're all old and stuff. But now that i've officially finished the 10 years of basic education - ten years of pure fun and of course at times torture, it feels that the last 10 years were nothing; Nothing compared to what's coming up in life.

Each of us have different paths. Each of us will go different ways.
I stepped into school last week and all i felt was nostalgia. It was bittersweet. I'd never get the chance to hang out in the canteen everyday anymore. I'd never get the chance to play the very out of tune piano in the canteen anymore. There's so many things i'd never get the chance to do again! And that sucks. Okay, not alot but just a little.

I know i know i said i wouldn't go all soppy and sentimental. It's just.. how it happens haha how it goes.

I know the people in my school couldn't wait to get the hell out of yuying. But i look at them and i just can't help but wonder what they've been doing in school for the past 4 years+? I mean it's practically our second home, and the title doesn't do the real thing justice.

I guess i am pretty afraid of what's to come. When you're in school it feels like your duty is just to study. I mean, how hard can it get right? For now, the future looms scarily ahead. Sounds drama mama i know, but the feeling of not knowing what you'll, i'll, expect scares me. I don't know what lies ahead, whether i'll make it in life or i'll just end up failing.
After all, life has this uncanny way of turning it's back on you just when you expect it to do otherwise. It happens too often too.


So pts cancelled plans tmr cause she has something on! Seems like i'll be All Alone again tmr HAHA self-pity, self-pity.

Okay enough of thinking. It's almost ten and time for heroes. See terence, i told you i'll watch :D

'Cause nothing's ever what it seems.
I'm just writing this letter to nobody.

Icons of self-indulgence

My legs feel like total jello. My stomach's grumbling and asking for food. Just realised that i didn't eat dinner.

I was practically on my feet the whole day. Went to church and it was alright(:
After service we had lunch at church. For once we didn't go for Tauhuay! Haha
So like, after lunch, deborah suddenly said she wanted to eat desert. I was like, how about tauhuay(LOL). I mean, after all, that's like our favourite hang out. BUT because of the fact that we are now free people, no longer prisoners of the educations system (for a while, at least), we decided to go somewhere further away.

PS. Plaza Singapura.

We went to the arcade.

Yes i'm just gna let that statement sink in for a moment.

HAHA yea the arcade! My goodness how long have i not stepped into such a place anyway? What with all the noise and the small primary kids and all. Lol but it was fun la. And we saw this guy who was damn pro! It was this finger-drumming(?) thing and his fingers were moving at the speed of sound! We were like basking in the glory of his spastic(!) fingers la, especially charis!

In the end we went to macs for desert. I know, like all the way to PS and then we had macs?
Haha well whatever. I drank this double chocolate thing from mac cafe. It wasn't all that bad, but i still prefer coffee bean (:

So we sat down and talked. Nope, no gossiping today. We just talked about really random stuff. Like TV shows.
Btw, i didn't know Grey's anatomy had FIVE SEASONS (According to charis) I thought there was only THREEEEEEEEE!

Plus, i saw the same hoodie frm Dorothy perkins again. SO GORGEOUS its about sixty bucks? Still affordable la. And then another hoodie from flash and splash (? whatever that surf/beach wear place is called) its like what, 105$. Bloody hell. All the money eating people around here hahaha sorry i just feel so sorry for myself.

Well we parted ways (okay that sounded real drama) and i trained dwn to pasir ris. City Hall MRT station was like #(@#*!%$#)@)%*$(@*%($ !!!! Singaporeans are really.. really ill-bred? Like, hello what are the yellow lines for? People are just squeezing everywhere lah. We're the Kiasu race! Anyway i was very amused, not so much pissed.

I reached white sands, said bye to my brother and he left. And i left -.- it's quite nonsense really because i could've gone home but ANYWAY after sending michelle home we went to J8.

IMMA HAPPY PERSON :D

I bought mattress protector (HAHA okay that didn't make me happy) for next year all. I bought converse shoes. It's in the kids section but i can wear their size 3. It's really pretty but it was expensive. TYPICAL HAHA. Also, i bought 2 tshirts frm the usual and then i walked into Fox to look for my jacket thing that i saw at taka.

-" HI! WELCOME TO..." (1 second pause)
*/feel someone whack my arm
-"GERALDINE!"

HAHA yanyi's working at Fox@J8! So nice la seeing her(: I miss secondary school already. She's as pretty as always and she just started work recently.

WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE A JOB BUT ME! HAHA

I need to go job hunting. Pronto.

Recommendations, anyone? I want office jobs. The maximum time i can work is until mid jan because of studies.
I'll love you forever if you get a job for me (good pay, OF COURSE).

No, SERIOUSLY.

REALLY!

Why do you look at me this way, if you're just gonna look away?
If fate fails, we'll try again anyway.
Those eyes pierce through my soul and demand the truth; it's a law.
You're one of the reasons i breathe; my love, my all(:

I lack inspiration. Where's my muse gone to?

XOXO geraldine.

'Cause I'm The Best Damn Thing Your Eyes Have Ever Seen [:

I'm absolutely sleep-deprived. I think it started from the BBQ night or smethg. (SEE LA)
No idea why but i keep sleeping around midnight every night but i keep waking by like what, 9am?

MENTAL.

Anyway, today was a really long dayyyyy
Went to IRC(??) to collect my passport. It's Biometric but the photo is like $#%$($#^%($#!!!!
HAHA but yea the government wants to eat our money. Passport used to expire in 10 years (for girls) BUT now it's five years. So after every 5 years you gta make new passport and pay Seventy bucks. MONEY EATING PEOPLE
Again, #(!%$!)$(#!*%(#!$%(#(%$%)$()#

If i get sued...

So.
Went to church for Pastor KC's graduation ceremony. I was practically falling asleep (i TOLD you!) but i was smart enough to make use of the toothpicks they gave us for door gifts to keep my eyelids open and if you think that this is true please slap yourself. Yes. Right now.

After like ten years wandering around church i went to bugis with mum &aunty beeling. Bought a dress top thang frm little match girl. Not my kind of thing but my mum bought it for me lah.
I saw this limited edition shoe from Converse. It's red and its VELCRO!!

Okay, most of you don't know it but I HAVE A THING FOR VELCRO SHOES.
Haha i think it's the fact that i DON'T have one and that makes me wna have one! I mean, look at all the nike kid's Velcro shoes. GORGEOUS OR WHAT HUH.
haha so yea the converse velcro shoes. Very nice. Let's just say the price was waaaayyyyy overpriced (ALMOST TWO HUNDRED) i paid lesser for my adicolours lah i think!

Speaking of Overpriced items, the topshop vest that i wanted so very badly costs $116. I mean, its a VEST HELLO! Haha but it's a precious thing. Love the details especially and if i get it (i won't don't worry) i don't have to worry about walking along orchard and seeing some other girl wearing the exact same thing. The odds are 0.9? 0.009? (sorry so bimbotic but i have a thing about originality ask celly)

So now that's two items on the list of things i wna buy. On the top of the list some more! Haha i'll never get those items unless they have like some warehouse sale or smethg. HA DREAM ON GERALDINE.

Enough of the digression. Trained dwn to Airport &had dinner at breeeeekkkkssss which was the only not extremely crowded place and the food was super good! I had this salmon steak thing. Not exactly my first choice but i did it for the whipped potato. My Goodness the whipped potato at breeks is totally superb. Like, REALLY REALLY Good! I know i sound like a pig but for those who grew up eating KFC's whipped potato and actually like it (haha guilty.) breek's whipped potato is like a hundred times better. So yea, people, go try the whipped potato there Haha now i'm advertising for them.

After dinner we went to find the churchies who were going off to Turkey. My parents and I were supposed to go but for personal reasons we backed out ):
I wna go turkey I WANNA GO TURKEY! haha apparently the place is hell nice we stopped by there on our trip to israel two years ago (:

But yea vacations are one of my favourite things ever. I mean, the whole epitome of like sight-seeing and taking loads of pictures and getting high in hotel rooms with room service and all? Like, how can you NOT like it? It's madness!

Anyway i was just thinking about it during the trainride today.
I can't bear to look right into people's eyes. It's pretty silly actually but the intensity Always makes me look away. Always.

That was random, but staring is rude and smoking kills.

That was random too.

Don't do drugs kiddos, Teen drinking is very bad :D

The Queen's English

I'm eating what, scrambled eggs and toast for breakfast/lunch.
So Dreadfully Unhealthy!

Haha I'm watching nanny mcphee on HBO
The accents are getting into me!
Smashing
That's dreadful!

HAHA jolly well.

Reminds me of Bridget Jones.

As she says, V good!
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Watching The Zodiac on TV.
I was watching it and then i realised that it's not the same as the one i watched in the movies.
The Zodiac was released in 2005 but i watch Zodiac this year.

So yea. Apparently, they never found out who the real Zodiac was, i THINK.
It's all very confusing. But that's not surprising. After all, releasing the Zodiac's letters to the public will only lead to people who want to act like the serial killer.

Anyway, i'm determined to read all of the Alex Cross novels by James Patterson.
Like, how can you not like it?
There's 13 books i think, with the latest being released this year.

I need to make a long overdue trip to the library.

Post Mortem

Only two more days, until your birthday
Yesterday was mine
You'll be turning five
I know what it's like, growing up without your father in your life
So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And I hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all
Maybe someday
you'll really get to know me
not just the letters read to you
I pray I get the chance
To make it up to you
We got a lot of catching up to do
So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all
Forgive me
I'm so sorry
I will make it up to you

Haha i often wonder why this song has never made it to the top ten charts.
I mean, compare it with My Guardian Angel and? Hahaha okay fine. Personal Preferences.

Anyway, i'm too lazy to blog about last night all.
I'll do it another time.

Okay i'm off. Just wanted to post lyrics :D

CHIMOS.

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I didn't get a job in the end. like, WHAATTTTTT haha
So yea. Quite sad la.

Anyway, I'm watching Secret now. Terence lent me the CD :D
There's a whole load of Chopin, and the songs are like Reaalllyyy good. Jay Chou's so pro can!
Plus, i still think that Jay chou's a good actor. As in, the roles he act in are very.. not him. And that's why it's called ACTING.

BBQ was good. Catched up with people i haven't seen in awhile. JAS CAME! Very niceeeee
Also, we stayed up until like, 4 plus. Jiang and terence bought macs home for breakfast(:
Haha in the afternoon we went to TM. Pts and i took neos! After like what, ten years?
It's been really really really long la.

The weird part of Secret is when Jay decides to go back into the future. On the score, it says that "Return lies within Hasty Keys". But Jay isn't returning! Returning means going BACK to where he's from. The score shouldn't have worked at all. He should have died HAHA

But yea, It's a good show. Extremely drama though.
And what the guys said is true. Sky IS prettier than rain.
Why do they have stupid names anyway?

Chocolate milk :D

I am craving for a cup of choco milk
I'm a huge HL fan. I mean, who isn't, right?

So i woke up really really early today. It was too early even for my own good haha
I mean, there's like completely nothing to do at home.
No job, No School. How boring can life get? I KNOW, THE IRONY HAHA

Anyway i woke varian up and pestered him to meet me first because i really couldn't stand the quiet house with its four walls and all. It's pretty pathetic. Yes, even for such a bummer like me.
Went to macs where we saw the 4A people. Realised that there IS a yearbook, just that they didn't give it to us -.-

I realised that the teachers actually read my blog. I mean, i knew that there were teachers who read students' blog, but i didn't know that MY BLOG was part of the 'group'
Haha it's really funny. and HELLO MR PEH IF YOU'RE READING THIS :D

One day, I'll not be doing this online thing that's free. Instead, i'll write in a huge magazine or a paper and then everyone will read it and i'll know that their reading it! Hahaha don't worry. I'll tell them i know you guys when i'm all rich and famous.

Haha oh how narcissistic. HEY MEGALOMANIAC HAHA
So i wasted half my day (that's not very surprising la)
Went to NTUC and bought the chicken wings all. Brought them to pts' house and we tried to marinate them but bernice's mum told us that it was too early.
So in the end, we trooped up to her room and slacked. It's better than slacking Alone at home so yea.
Talked shit and terence was behaving extremely spastically lol
After bestfriend left, we played monopoly! That was after TRYING to play risk but failed because it's such an old game and the manual was very misleading. Me and Terence were practically trying to decipher it but of course, Failed Horribly!

Monopoly was of course better. Reminds me of the times when i used to hand out with my cousins at my grandmothers house in what, pampers? Haha okay la not that young but we were definitely not in primary school yet.

I remember how i used to hide the money so that everyone would not pick on me and when they thought i was bankrupt... HAHA! i would pull out a wad of what, 500 dollar bills and smirk, satisfied.

Haha okay la that was pretty random but i've got to say : The old times.. The old times.. (*/sighhssssss)



Anyway, tmr's BBQ already! Kinda excited and all. Especially with the thoughts of hanging out with the usuals.
I actually wanted something simple. You know, like the old times, with just the clips and the respective partners.
It was so fun then. We could really TALK then.
Which was why i didn't want too many people to come. Yea
But well, it's okay. Let's gather another time with just all EIGHT of us, okay?


And the TVLINKS guy got arrested, and probably jailed and fined.


Many depended on him. How illegal can we get mannnnn.

Okay we're all free now&I need my chocolate milk now!

XOXO chimos!

Megalomaniac

WHY OH WHY DOESN'T THE SUN SHINE BRIGHT

$*#YKDSFI$(U#QTREA AFDAI$(UQ(YTR$ FA

Megalomaniac

Hello hello :D
I'm watching The Lady in the Water
The guy reminds me of Kramer vs Kramer haha as in, the writer who's gna die.
The show was supposedly for some disney channel thing because of its fairytale storyline and all.
During the party, when the film critic was talking to these 2 bums, note the guy in red(:

So my brother was supposed to book in ytd but got an MC so he's booking in tonight.
Like, what's the difference right? haha

And i found the Megalomaniac video last night.
No wonder they don't show it on MTV! The song itself is already pretty offensive. Like, who catagorises Jesus and elvis tgt Anyway!

But i think that Incubus was trying to make a point &i agree. People try to be god. They act like it. It's really sad to see the world becoming like this.

So anyway like i said, i found the video on youtube. Extremely contrevorsial. And then i read the comments. Some of it and people from all over the world are being critics. Like I said, its very sad.

Haha but the song is extremely addictive though. I have this urge to scream HEY MEGALOMANIAC randomly. Pretty insulting huh. Haha

I have to go for medical checkup this thurs, and renew my passport this friday.
And then after all that i can make my student visa :D

BRANDON BOYD <3

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The Joy Luck Club. Many schools are doing that book for lit, but not me.
Surprisingly, they made a movie outta it and its on star movies.

The bad thing is that my aunt doesnt have a job for me ):
I'm gna check out if there's jobs with magazines and all but its quite impossible i guess.

I really need a job. Man this sucks.

Okay la most people have ended their O'lvls and i can't wait for BBQ/stayover this wed &thurs.
I'm hoping to start work and all, if possible, by next week!

Recommendations, anyone?

Anyway,

Lime Sonic Bang
This Saturday, 17th November
Sentosa, Siloso Beach
12pm - LATE
There'll be 987 DJs and local bands like The Great Spy Experiment and Plain Sunset.

Harvn asked me to go, but i don't know.
I'll ask the usuals this weds& we'll see.
Bad timing for a beach thing, if y'all know what i mean.

XOXO

Stereophonics

Did we lose ourselves again?
Do we take in what's been said?
Do we take the time to be
All the things we said we'd be
And we bury heads in sand
But my future's in my hands
It means nothing
It means nothing
You can find yourself a god
Believe in which one you want
'Cos they love you all the same
They just go by different names
When we fly our flag today
Are you proud or just ashamed?
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
And the sun sets in the sky
You're the apple of my eye
If the bomb goes off again
In my brain or on the train
I hope that I'm with you
'Cos I wouldn't know what to do
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you

(:

Fallen

I was big on evanescence. Huge. I even got their first cd.
What to do? i was primary6.

Anyway after their first single i fell in love with amy lee's voice.
(SHE LOOKS ALOT LIKE JAMIE FROM SURVIVOR:CHINA!)
Plus, i didn't know that 'Broken' had a video. I just saw it on youtube.
Haha what a daft person; it's been abt 3 years since they released that song la.
Still lovin' it though.
Haha micky Deee.

Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was
I love you and I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet rapture and life,
It ends here tonight.

I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree

I know you hear me,
I can taste it in your tears.

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you.
Sweet rapture and life,
It ends here tonight.

Closing your eyes, you disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth -No one's there.

Say goodnight, don't be afraid
Calling me, holding me, as you fade to black.

(say goodnight) holding my last breath
(don't be afraid) safe inside myself
(holding me) are my thoughts of you
Sweet rapture and life,
It ends here tonight.

Anyway, Bring it on: All or nothing is on now
The lead's of course, Hayden Panettiere who is one of the leads on Heroes
Hayden has acted in of course, many shows, including certain shows that they Only show on niceklodean.
I think she ice-skates too hahaha
So yea, Bring it on's a really really great show la
Everyone who watched it dreamt of becoming a cheerleader la haha
Seriously. It was HUGE. The show i mean.
Kirsten Dunst! :D
Hahaha but yea.

May the best moves win

Who can EVER forget that line? (:

cause this is my confession

I'm still having the flu and all.
Not very nice. Plus its all dark and gloomy no sun for me to start my process on getting darker.

Anyway, i've just realised that before, i was just obsessing about going and stuff. And then when they accepted me, i was overjoyed (of course) but because it was in the middle of the O'lvls, i didnt do much. After three days of happiness and going out and having fun, i woke up this morning and decided to be responsibleeee :D

Haha got out my pen and paper and started doing a list of things i need to buy/bring over.
It's total madness i have no clue whatsoever, but thank God for germsssyyyy wermsy

Haha but wait. first things first

Happy birthday adam!
Happy birthday juiuwei!

two of my most favourite people :D

yea survivor last night was really exciting! i thought james was gna play his hidden immunity idol but then J-R left. Haha good i guess, but in this whole competition, i'm hoping that amanda, todd or frosti will win.
They're the safest, but courtney, leslie, phie-gee and eric will be kicked out sooner or later.
Eric's really cute though (:
hahaha i didn't notice it before. And like, the quietest people, like eric and leslie? They've managed to stay in after so long. They're playing it safe i think, even though they get disadvantages. But now they really have to start forming alliances.
On the other hand, maybe its not so good to form alliances. Eric's just going along with first jamie, then phie-gee but leslie sees who has the upper hand first.
They have got to make decisions and start doing something or they'll be kicked out by james and the gang.

Haha oh well. if not for that lousy jamie (!!!!) aaron will be there and he'll definitely win! Yay i like aaronnn

Frosti or amanda - Todd will get outwitted but he can try to stay in the game for as long as possible.

Haha oh and ghost whisperer very exciting! Total must watch. i even got my p3 cousin hooked on it and she's all like, why? and what's happening?
Very amusing.

Visit to the hairdresser has been postponed, AGAIN, thanks to a mother who is totally obsessed with working and is never home.
Now you wonder if i can survive in sydney alone? I tell you, i've been alone at home since primary school. hahahaha

My aunt was just saying ytd, that she doesnt allow her kids to take the lift up alone.
I was like, WHAATTT rachel's p3! hahaha
I don't know. Maybe because of my brother, my parents really let go. But of course, they still don't allow me to come home at like, past midnight (haha) and all while my aunt still grabs hold of my hand when we're jaywalking! HAHA

Anyway bbq on the 14th at my place.
Really hope that everyone can make it and that the clips can stay
I really need to catch up on stuff with them!

I think i'll go catch up on sleep or watch some tv.
Really nothing to do.

It's been two days and i'm missing you already(:

16 and 6 - no difference

Just got home not too long ago from shoppinnggggg
went to citylink, raffles city and marina square! the Best shopping place in Singapore :D

Went with my aunty who woke me up early in the morning.
Met up with cousin and her daughter who turns 6 today!
Ate sakae for lunch and then headed to andersen's for Ice cream and fondueee
It was delicious :D

Anyway, i got a top from OP hahaha
its a typical OP blouse thing, but my aunt said its 'very nice!' and bought it for me
hahah wasn't what i was looking for but yeaa (:

So their all coming over to my house for dinner and for the first time in months i'm having THREE FULL MEALS A DAY

bloody hell. so fattening.

&i love you more than life

Was feeling realllayyeee irritated.
But then the piano solved it all (:

But i HAVE to say that i don't have to answer to anybody. Apart from God and the few important to me.
I mean, what do i owe you! Sure, you can say all you want but i'm just gna nod and smile like some phony and just go along with whatever you people are gna say.

Anyway, thanks to the people who accepted it without any questions asked :D
The tips and advice too.

So.

I spent like, half my morning cleaning my room.
It's like, super free from BOOKS and PAPERS and whatever rubbish there is.
Sadly though, it still looks very crowded. haha
Being an extremely sentimental person, i HAD to keep some 'sacred' stuff. HA.

And i know i keep jumping from topic to topic but my aunt's the best!
Heehee she's gna look for a job for me at her office, which is at changi, so quite nearby la.
My brother worked there too after his O'lvls BUT unlike him i shall not spend the salary in what, one week.
Haha the pay's not bad, beats micky D (okay fine many jobs beat that lousy pay)
Pays less than 10, more than 6. So it's not bad already.

I wna go to egypt. And venice.
And of course, back to my favourite place - London.

But i'm just planning for like, 10 years later(:

Okay bye. for now.

tell me.

life's like that.

Haha i'm going shopping Again.
tomorrow, with my aunt
And then i'm (FINALLY) gna get my hair cut!
I know i know. During the mugging period i was totally ignoring the hair and the nails and pretty much everything else.

Okay bbq on now
SEE YOU :D

It's just a ride.

I Am Exhausted.
I swear my eye bags are swelling by the minute.
Haha spent the past hour typing stuff.

Anyway i'm already bored of not stressing over O'lvls.
Okay fine that's a crazy thought but slacking isn't my thing. Pretty ironic, huh. When i'm mugging i'd be better of bumming around.

So yea. it's kinda sad, my life.

If i was like a millionaire, life wouldn't be as boring.
I'd spend money like nobodies business, but i'm dreaming a poor person's dream. And Rightly so anyway.

BBQ tmr at my place. Fat la can. Oh MUST BORROW GREY'S ANATOMY FROM AUDREY :D

Haha if y'all lived and died together with the dinosaurs (HAHAHA WHAT HAPPENED TO FUTURAMA)(okay that was really random), i must say again grey's anatomy is a really good show. Something like ER, Plus the scandals.

Things to do:
1. look for job
2. Watch everything i want to watch
3. Buy topcoat!
4. But the vest from topshop
5. Buy shoes
6. Buy top for dinner
7. Spend every morning tanning :D
8. Buy and get ready for 31st jan!
9. Sleepover at bernice's
10. Try not to forget everything from the past 10 years of education.

and then there's 0.5 which is most probably the hardest - Spend More Time with God.

And MTV's dying. I just watched the same music video (kylie! HAHA) in a matter of minutes.
What is Wrong man! Give me some classic songs.

Plus i just realised that there's an Ecko shop in singapore!
I mean, a proper shop. Like, yea sure they have those tiny shops that sell watches and all, but i've never seen a shop the size of like, erm, the normal boutiques until today. It's at taka actually.
If i'm not outdated, then i must be a bit 'lag la' or sua ku, to put it in a very Singaporean wayyyyyy.

Okay i'm sleep deprived manXzXsZxZX
StAy keWlZzZz pEopLe! ^^



I realised i can never manage to add a 'neh' or a 'wor' into that.

Oh well.

Say no to drugs kiddos!

regrets &revelations

Hello people!
I went on a major shopping spree today. Okay not THAT major but i spent quite alot of money, considering the fact that my status is currently: A SLACKER
hahaha so yea JOBS! i need it! Anyone who has a job that pays well and has nothing to do with walking on the streets trying to sell people products, PLEASE tell me!

So i went town with cousin today(:
Just the two of us. Saw angeline and steph at cityhall.
Went to taka to change her mum's shirt and then had lunch.
Shopped around wisma &i bought a pair of shades from aldo. Saw PAO and then we walked to far east.
Shopped some more and i bought jeans
Walked around and met more funny people and by like, 3 hours later our legs were hurting like hell.
It never used to happen to me - 3 hours used to be NOTHING okay!
HAHA but anyway, dinner at long johns and waited for bus5

Okay. The most retarded thing happened. We sat down opposite each other and there was this middle aged china man beside me. He asked me if the mrt station we just passed was orchard mrt and i obviously said no.
BIG MISTAKE! He started talking to us and all and rosamund was trying to act like she was trying to sleep
hahaha it was damn hilarious. He even asked us funny questions like our age, where we stay(!) and where we study(!!) and what our parents worked us(!!!) He even asked us what we bought!
I tried to be nice but was really pissed because hello! Singaporeans really are very dao people and they don't do this; this meaning talking to strangers.
Yea so i told him that i stayed in changi and that my mum works in the government and my dad's a doctor. Rosamund was totally laughing away and i had to count to ten (HAHA)
but yea very irritating. He's like some cheeko peh can.

So i'm home and i realised that no one else is home because my brother's coming back today!
I shall STOP spending money, START looking for a job, and GET A TAN. I'm as white as a chicken!

XOXO chimomomomosssss.

It's over and done with.

HAHAHAHAHA :D
i'm feeling happy happy joy joy!

MCQ was alright.
After it ended at 10, slacked at pts' house.
Tried REALLY hard to study, but failed of course. We laughed and laughed and talked like old times (:

Lit papers were horrible. I mean, manageable but still.
Haha not sure how to explain
Chomps with pts, bird &chrystal! FUNNY PEOPLE
Pigged out can. stingray, kangkong, chicken wings! :D

Anyway shopping date with rosamund tmr!
LETS SEE SOME GOOD STUFF PEOPLE

XOXO chimos!

sunday christian? or more to that?

You see, people really don't know how to plan the dates for the exams properly
I have one paper today - SS
and its done already. I'm home and it's barely 10.30
and tmr, the LAST DAY, they HAVE to give me three papers!
But well, compared to some people, it's already a blessing.
Imagine people who have science in the morning, d&t and art, and then lit papers 1&2 in the afternoon!
I pity them la.

SS was well, manageable. After all, i think that all the papers in the O'lvls weren't easy peasy okay!
It was all manageable and i'll probably pass everything, but the way some people said DAMN EASY LA makes me very nervous and worried.
Haha if it was that easy it wouldn't be O'lvls, right?

I don't know la. Anyway the good thing is that THREE MORE PAPERS and i can go shopping Hee Hee :D
Already made a date with rosamund! town here we come baby!

The bad thing is i'll never step in yuying for a very long time (i think, maybe for GB) and also, i'm not very worried about this whole O'lvls thing
Its crazy isn't it! Almost everyone i know is like, totally panicking and worrying but i'm like okay la pass pass b3 b3 no A1 nevermind
Is that good or bad? i used to be the A1 no A1 damn lousy person

Okay that's pretty nonsensical BUT ITS PROBABLY BECAUSE I'M REJOICING !

And like for the past month or so, i've been looking through online shops. No not ebay, but websites where people sell accessories and clothes. Also, i've been looking through kate moss's collection and though expensive, some of the clothes are absolutely gorgeous!
I think it makes up for the time spent of studying instead of shopping
Anyway, i'll never shop online. Because
1. it's too risky. Haha i know there are really some people who sell firsthand goods that aren't spoiled or whatever but i don't know la. I just would'nt wna spend money on things i see online, no matter how many angles i can view it from.

2. I'm the kind of person that loves shopping because of the buying part, the finding something i like part, and the trying part. Trying all sorts of different clothing makes me happy and that's why i love shopping! I mean, it doesn't even matter that the clothes are a thousand bucks but if you look good, at least try it on ONCE. Haha the satisfaction is so great. I'm sure many will agree.

But of course, online shopping is easier. But i still like walking around four six hours straight. Gives you a chance to catch up and go really wild with girlfriends too :D

So.
i'm hungry. Someone please deliver some food to my house? I'll love you forever. Really

XOXO chimos babes

Paper bags and plastic hearts

I'm Nobody! Who are you?
Are you – Nobody – too?
Then there's a pair of us?
Don't tell! they'd advertise – you know!

How dreary – to be – Somebody!
How public – like a Frog –
To tell one's name – the livelong June –
To an admiring Bog!

Hahaha Jumanji's on now!
Oh i love that show(:
Kirsten Dunst looks so young! I mean, okay she is la
But even then, you can tell. Same face same eyes same hair.

Anyway, TWO MORE DAYS FOUR MORE PAPERS and im done with it
It's taking way too long baby
and i feel sadly unprepared for tmr's SS paper!
HOW!

Well, like i said, from the beginning, i'm just gna trust in Him :D

Church was good. Good message and good lunch (:
Talked to dorothy and deborah and we were all about SHOPPING
Hahaha i can't wait! */squeals in excitement
Anyway, after Jumanji and i'm back to studying ):

Chimos XOXO

I carry your heart with me, i carry it in my heart

Am down with the flu. This sucks
My voice has gone all retarded and i sneeze like twice every minute
WHO SAID VITAMIN C PREVENTS COLDS
Hahaha i've been drinking orange juice for the past few days

Anyway i've wasted the morning slacking which probably isn't the best thing to do now
Can't afford to slack now and screw up my last four papers
FOUR! :D
Been watching HBO and nothing else. Watched Maid in manhattan, In Her Shoes and Something about mary
Yay great shows(:
AND two of them with cameron diaz in it!

Alone at home &my brother's coming home tonight
Falling sick isn't on the top of my list and my mother and her credit card that can get me a 20% discount at river island had to work today so goodbye shopping
Good or bad, i don't know.

Must restrain myself for spending too much at one go
Also, save money
Lastly, LOOK FOR A JOB

My greatest ambition is to retire with a husband i can talk to when i'm all old and forgetful, and to sit down and gossip with my best friends and tell my grandchildren long yaya papaya stories


( Emily Dickinson )
A great Hope fell
You heard no noise
The Ruin was within
Oh cunning wreck that told no tale
And let no Witness in

The mind was built for mighty Freight
For dread occasion planned
How often foundering at Sea
Ostensibly, on Land
A not admitting of the wound
Until it grew so wide

That all my Life had entered it
And there were troughs beside
A closing of the simple lid
That opened to the sun
Until the tender Carpenter
Perpetual nail it down --

chimos XOXO

I open at the close

Four more papers :D

Anyway bio was alright. It seems like after every paper i'll be telling myself, "see la worry for what!"
haha after bio went to eat with angeline and kal at KFC
They were dissing people as usual &this guy ate like THREE set meals!
Was walking to backgate bus stop and theng hui joined us

Everytime i read the deathly hallows and i get to the part where Voldemort kills snape without any concern and guilt, and harry gets the memory from snape and looks at snape's memories through the penseive, i always feel my heart beating fast.
Half-blood prince left all of us thinking that snape was a total betrayer but then you read the last few chapters of the deathly hallows, and we go WHAT! Haha yea
Like, imagine how harry's feeling. After everything, all the hatred and all, it turns out that snape's really on his side.
It's really quite sad isn't it?

Anyway you can like, stop reading now. Because im gna like just 'discuss' about HP books. i know, how boring. but sue me, won't you? (:

The Deathly hallows talk so much about the past few books.

In the beginning where harry's aunt and uncle and dursley is prepared to leave the house for their safety, and Petunia realises that she's the last one to be left in the house with harry and she wanted to say something but could not say it. Her sister died in the hands of the most evil wizards of all time, and although she despised the wizarding world, deathly hallows bring us back to when she just maybe, wanted a place in hogwarts when she wrote to Dumbledore (who replied most kindly)

Philosopher's stone
James and Snape despised each other the very first time they met, very much like draco and harry.
The mirror of Erised that Harry saw showed his family, and in the D.hallows, before he walked to his own death, he also saw his parents with help from the resurrection stone, inlcuding sirius and lupin.
Norbert (dragon) is actually Norberta and the dragon gets them into trouble, while in the last book, a dragon gets them out of it.

Harry first meets Voldemore in the forbidden forest, when he sees voldemort drinking unicorn's blood to sustain his life. He also surrenders himself in the forbidden forest where voldemort is at the height of his power, what with the elder wand and all.
Voldemort posseses quirell and in the chamber of secrets, Quirell burns upon touching harry, just like when Voldemort could not bear to possess harry in the order of phoenix.


Chamber of secrets
In the second book, Dobby the house elf first met harry when he tried to warn him against going back to Hogwarts. It seems that dobby is always a great help, but he sadly got stabbed by Bellatrix's silver knife when he tries to rescue harry potter. This part always leaves me feeling sad and the part about the fact that dobby should have as grand a funeral as dumbledore always strikes me.

Colin Creevy who worships the ground harry walked on, died in the last book. His death may not be as significant as dumbledore's or lupin's, but it still hit me la.

Also, they already mentioned one horcrux in that book, which is Tom Riddle's dairy who posseses ginny. Tom Marvolo Riddle (Anagram! I Am Lord Voldemort), it seems, always uses Hagrid. Hagrid was being expelled for the attacks when the chamber was first open, and at the end, he's also the one to be captured.


Prisoner of Azkaban
I don't really like book 3, which i find rather boring. Lol Hermione and Ron, though have been arguing since forever, though in book 3, with the crookshanks and disappearance of Scabbers, their friendship went plummeting down down down
Professor Trelawny apparently only has 2 prophecies that actually came true - one about harry being the one to defeat the dark lord and the other, about peter pettigrew returning to his 'master' that night.
Harry saves Peter pettigrew, and peter pettigrew killed himself in the end, as predicted.

The patronus that harry casts to chase away the dementors is a stag, and harry thinks that it's his dead father. Similarly, the patronus taking the form of a doe leads harry and ron to want to believe that it was cast by Dumbledore, who is already dead. Also, the doe is actually snape's patronus, which in fact, is memory of Lily.


Goblet of Fire
I especially like the books from Goblet of fire onwards.
Ron is jealous of harry and thinks he cheated when harry got into the triwizard competition. Ron is constantly being in the background, like when he looked into the mirror of Erised and sees himself being better than his brothers and when he was about to stab the horcrux (locket) after rescuing harry. However, his chess skills is like perfecto and Tonks praised him, saying that he managed to stun one of the death eaters while escaping in the beginning of book 7. ('always the tone of surprise)
Dobby helps harry, and so does moaning myrtle. Harry realises snape's a death eater when he looks at dumbledore's pensieve and suspects him even more. It is also at dumbledore's pensieve when he realises the whole truth.
Fawke's tears saved Harry in book 2 and also in book 4 and 7, due to the wand connections. Whatever happened to fawkes though, J.K.Rowling never says.
Fleur meets bill in this book, dates him in the order of pheonix, and marries him in deathly hallows.


Order of Pheonix
This is my favourite-st book and i don't know if i like this book better of Deathly hallows

In this book, Umbridge tries to fire trelawny and macgonall who apparently dislikes trelawny but goes to help her anyway.

Umbridge's methods of detention makes harry turn away from the ministry, showing the minister of magic the scars on his wrists twice in two different books -I Must Not Tell Lies

Occlumency is never potter's strength and in the last book, he gives up trying. Instead, he wants to see into voldemort's mind. It is also admitted in book 7 that though harry tells his friends (hermione in particular) that he hates the connection between voldemort, he actually treasures it because it has helped him save mr weasley but has led to sirius' death

One question bothers me: Is umbridge plain sadistic, or is she a death eater? She has never openly supported voldemort, but she also does not fail to use illegal and cruel methods like the cruciatus curse.

Sirius dies with a laugh, and Bellatrix dies the same, mocking way when mrs weasley kills her. Amusingly, Fred dies the same way, with a laugh.

Sirius is the first in his family not to be a slytherien. His brother, Regulas, though in slytherein and later one of voldemort's followers, actually died trying to 'do something against' voldemort. In snape's memories, dumbledore asks him if 'we sorted too early' and i think this sentence also does just to regulas.

I think the most significant part of this book is the end, when dumbledore tells harry about the prophecy trelawny made and that voldemort chose to mark harry as his equal and not neville
Luna lovegood is really good though she's never mentioned in the first few books. I really like her spunk and her carefree spirit. Especially when she does the commentary for a quidditch competition!(in half blood prince i think)

Oh and i read that Rowling wanted to kill arthur weasley at first, but then backed down and killed sirius instead.


Half blood prince
Snape is probably the main character here, being the half blood prince.
He's obviously a good actor, and a very good wizard too, coming up with spells like sectumspetra and levicorpus. He even gets voldemort to trust him and hides his real feelings from him.

The position as the defence against the arts teacher is 'cursed' (i think ron said this haha)
First quirell who died, Gilderoy Lockhart goes mad, Lupin who resigns, Alastor moody who apparently was a fake and Umbridge who went all funny. Snape is this book's defence against the dark arts teacher but after this book, gets promoted to be headmaster.

Dumbledore says that voldemort may have split his soul into seven parts to achieve immortality, with a 7th piece in his own body. Seems like voldemort really really really wants power huh. However, there are in fact, 8 horcruxes - one in voldemort, slytherein's locket, Hufflepuff's cup, ravenclaw's diadem, nagini, tom riddle's diary, marvolo gaunt's ring. The last and final one, is harry potter himself.
Harry dates ginny, ron and hermoine's feeligs for each other grows and becomes more obvious and they marry respectively.
Harry looks forward to bill and fleur's wedding as mentioned in the last chapter in this book. However, in deathly hallows, he wanted to skip it. The irony.

Rowling became pregnant with her third child during the writing of this book, and often joked about them racing each other into the world. For this reason, the book has this dedication:
To Mackenzie,
my beautiful daughter,
I dedicate
her ink and paper twin


Deathly Hallows
Nothing much because you all probably know the story. Anyway i read about Rowling admitting that Dumbledore is GAY and i decided to do some research
(extract: http://www.wikipedia.com/)

1. Harry becomes an Auror for the Ministry of Magic, and is later appointed head of the department. He keeps Sirius's motorcycle, which Arthur Weasley repaired for him, but he can no longer speak Parseltongue after Voldemort's soul fragment inside him was destroyed (it'd be good is he can and passes it on to his son, Albus severus. Twist)

2. Ginny Weasley plays for the Holyhead Harpies Quidditch team for a time, leaves to establish a family with Harry and later becomes the lead Quidditch correspondent for the Daily Prophet.

3. Ron Weasley works at George's store for a time, Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes, then joins Harry as an Auror.

4. Hermione finds her parents in Australia and removes the memory modification charm she put on them.(hahaha) She initially works for the Ministry of Magic in the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures, greatly improving life for house elves and their ilk. She later moves to the Department of Magical Law Enforcement and assists in eradicating oppressive, pro-pureblood laws.

5. Dumbledore's friendship with Gellert Grindelwald extended to unrequited love, which may have initially blinded him to the extent of Grindlewald's schemes.(at least it was unrequited but this shocked me. Dumbledore! GAY! my impression of him is super tainted!)

Rowling also explained the fates of several secondary characters:

1. George Weasley continues his successful joke shop and names his first child Fred, in memory of his late twin brother.

2. Luna Lovegood searches the world for odd and unique creatures. She eventually marries Rolf, a grandson of the famed naturalist, Newt Scamander. Her father's publication, The Quibbler, has returned to its usual condition of "advanced lunacy" and is appreciated for its unintentional humour.

3. Dolores Umbridge is arrested, interrogated, and imprisoned for crimes against Muggle-borns.
4. Cho Chang went on to marry a Muggle. (cedric, harry, then a muggle. Well done cho chang! -.-)

5. Neville Longbottom eventually marries Hannah Abbott (whattttttt) and lives in a flat above the Leaky Cauldron, when she becomes its new landlady.

There have been transformations in the wider wizarding world:

1. Kingsley Shacklebolt is the permanent Minister for Magic, (we saw this coming la) with Percy Weasley working under him as a high official. Among the reforms introduced by Shacklebolt, Azkaban no longer uses Dementors. Consequently, the world is now a "much sunnier place". (LOL)Harry, Ron, and Hermione have also been instrumental in reforming the Ministry.

2. At Hogwarts, Slytherin House has become more diluted and is no longer the pureblood bastion it once was, although its dark reputation lingers.

3. Voldemort's jinx on the Defence Against the Dark Arts (DADA) position is broken with his death. There is now a permanent DADA teacher.

4. A portrait of Snape, who briefly served as Hogwarts Headmaster, does not appear in the headmaster's office as he abandoned his post. Harry ensures the addition of Snape's portrait, and publicly reveals Snape's steadfastness. (how nice. naming his son after him too.)

okay this is way too long but its to analyse (KAL!) and destress.
I think.
Chimos!
I wna go shopping tmr!

F&N was total nonsense.
By far, its the one paper that i've not spent at least 53948230 hours mugging for.
Also, it was not as strict
Absolutely cannot stand it when the teachers stand beside you and read what you're just written. Makes me feel so.. pressurised and paiseh

Hahaha anyway the paper's alright la. Bio tmr so i really gta chiong for that.

Oh the GB girls were doing drills today. The sec3s are gna do drill stage 3 this sat and the rest are gna do stage 1
Very good! Too bad the sec4s never had the luxury to do stage 3 but yea, hoping that we'll produce some DIs

It's over soon!
Lol i know i keep saying that but seriously, it seems like this particular exam is taking a really long time to end.

Back to basics.
chimos!